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lying in this filth I want to die
just my thoughts and I
I'm scared by everything and the lamp shade on my night stand falling
makes
me panic and hits the floor before I can reach it
my heart is pounding looking around the room
no one else is here
looking
out the window half of me wants to pile up bricks in front of it
and the other half wants to open it and scream for help
I
want to erase parts of my mind
I want to go somewhere else
where nothing like this exits
I want someone to notice
that I'm underneath
I want to keep everyone from finding out
that I get like this and I don't know why
or how it
starts
but once it does it feels like years until I finally fall asleep and morning comes
take away night take away
mind
this is such a weight it holds every thing else down
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